Can love be too fast?

After weeks of texting and talking for hours on the phone, our first date was 30 hours in San Francisco. Still being committed to my own growth I vowed to be present to my own experience, to stay in the moment, don’t compare to the past as that would be pointless and don’t head off…

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Finding my Joy

I was talking to a good friend on FaceTime. I was feeling off, I had started the year dedicated to following my joy and then losing Blue (my Great Dane) in February had put me so far away from any thought of joy. In fact, that loss just seemed to highlight all the things that…

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Who said yes?

Who said yes?

  In my life there have been way too many times that I have found myself in a situation wondering how did I get myself here? Some of these situations have been quite devastating over the years and yet, I knew that in the moment I had said yes but then why did I find…

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Why am I here?

Renee looking over frozen lake

The clock on the nightstand told me it was 3:30 am, I am only semi-conscious, I am sweating, I have become aware of the fact that my body is in a state of wanting to run. A feeling of total panic runs through me. I look around the room trying to get my bearings, the…

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The loss of Blue

I started out this month working on a blog about how I have found my mission, that initial draft full of excitement of how after 30 years of searching and questioning the knowledge is there and the struggle of the search is gone but then everything changed. I came into this year beginning to lean…

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What’s in the attic?

Today, with the help of a friend, we pulled 15 or so boxes out of the attic. I remembered when we moved into this house 5 ½ years ago, after we had unpacked everything, we “needed” a few boxes sat in the dining room for a few months before we finally said, let’s just put them in the attic. Some of the things we knew we wouldn’t need, those few boxes of the kids’ school mementos things that I have moved from house to house to house.

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I failed my To Do List

Back in the 80’s I took my very first course in productivity, it was a Franklin Covey course and I had myself a brand-new Franklin Planner to go along with it.  As I took each piece of paper that I had scattered around my desk, pinned to a bulletin board or taped on the refrigerator at home and transferred them all into that planner I began to feel lighter, as I dumped all of the things I was trying to remember out of my mind and into that planner I remember thinking that this was a miracle.

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Zoom Gratitude

Last August my son Shane moved to Los Angeles to attend film school.  My daughter Courtney lives with her husband Justin in Arizona.  Before the pandemic hit, I had been traveling each week to Arizona to be at my client’s for work, Monday through Thursday. When I started traveling regularly to Arizona, I spoke to Courtney about getting together regularly, it was something that she and I were both excited to have the opportunity to do.

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Sisterhood

I am the oldest of four girls, I guess with this “oldest” title came the automatic assignment of always being the one responsible for the others. I was capable, more than capable so when my mom left when I was nine and requested that I parent my little sisters I was flattered that she would see that I was capable.

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